My brain is nonexistent, it is a lost boat in the middle of the Pacific ocean. It floats aimlessly in my skull, just floating. My brain is a toddler, it cannot make decisions by itself. My brain has to find reassurance from my heart before decides on anything and personally, I can’t bear it.
Your eyes, I just want them to look into mines once again. I don’t want the label as something more, I don’t need the feel of your heart against my heart, I am a free bird and no longer need a nest. Right now, I can only hope for us to be friends because the constant strain of avoidance has taken a toll on our almost nonexistent friendship. I can only hope to be your acquaintance again.
I see you and you see me yet when our eyes meet why is it that you look away instantly? I try to smile but by the time I do so, your eyes are already gone.
Fuck me, I hate myself right now. First I want nothing to do with you, then I want us to be friends.
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